TRUST & BELIEVING

"That car got kids inside," she added then she repeated for like the 3rd times.
"The kids said they saw you talking on the phone when the incident happening."

I replied when i got out of her Hilux, "Ya, and, but then..." I became speechless.
I closed on the door, walked through the back of the car to the lift when it arrived i went in asap.

Feeling so unfair, so frustrated and angry I sat on the sofa when I felt like make a call to that person and scold her for accusing me with the kids too.

Then I have a deep thought. Disappointed deep down inside for the 'TRUST AND BELIEVE'.
From my parents.



I crashed into another car, on the driver side few days ago.
Blame it on I was careless, might be caused of i was not conscious as i was sick and took fever medi and drive in the rain.
It's a vehicle used to drive school students from destination to destination.
And the vehicle have 2 (kids)students in the car at that time.
It's not the worst crash in my driving experience into another car.
But I got accused simply from the driver that I'm talking in the phone.
I got into an argument with her.
But I didn't show her my calling record which then Nic told me that I could do to win back the justice.
My dad was there to solve the car and way of settlement problem.



So i heard from my mom today that it is solved. The driver took the money, sign on agreement to settle it personally.
Then the conversation started with "She said the kids saw you talking on the phone when the incident happening."
Without hesitating, I said "I didn't even have the phone on my hand, it's in my pocket!" "After we got out of the car only i take it out and call dad."
Then a silent.

Then I remembered, when i was out of the car and calling dad, we're at the middle of the road. We then got back into our car and drive to the side and i was still calling.

(And now I remembered before I called dad even before i first got out of the car. Which means I made that call in the car after the crashed and that's it.)

She continues "She said the kids saw you talking on the phone when the incident happening."

However, I did tried explain to her I'm very clear that the crash was not about I'm talking in the phone. I did explain how i also got blocked from sight caused there were few cars parking at the side.

"That car got kids inside," she added then she repeated for like the 3rd times already.
"The kids said they saw you talking on the phone when the incident happening."



After a deep thought when i reaches home I felt totally disappointed.
It's not about being accused, it's not about rumors that might spread around my parents home's area, it's not much about others.

It's about the important people in my life not believing in me. Not trusting whatever they've taught after 24 years of very hard work for life. It's more than not encouraging me going into TOA and advertising line 4-6 years ago. I never get their trust no matter how hard I did anyway so what's for to explain more?
Well, basically I did nothing also after 20++ years other than being myself and not giving them any more troubles.

I thought maybe mom just simply repeating it. But 3 times, is it just enough to show uncertain and suspecting in the same time? She has got no other things she said other than that.

So i'm disappointed. Suddenly i thought so why do i still being so obedient? Just to show them? So I immediately decide ok! I won't be that obedient anymore! Kiss ma ASS!
But isn't this such childish?? For what again?? Just to show them? They won't understand either. Grow up Junnie!

I was angry and I hope to owe much more things that i can from them and take time to return back to make them live longer and longer to witness themselves and learn from us, the younger generations, what is trusting their children.

I would take every advantage i could from them so they won't feel worried so much about me leading hard life outside. So they keep not trusting or underestimate me handling my life. So they will learn to trust again when they're tired one day.


Well, I admit if I'm servicing in Hell, I'll be the king's fav devil.
I'm just too kind...to let others take advantage of i guess.