Me, in a year.

After CC+J, adapted to 3 changes and here I am. First is changes of leaving small agency to a big agency. Sec, is when i finally realised the life i wanted is different from the life I'm leading before and decided to move on. Third is when i started my career in Starbucks.

I'm still a passionate person now, in fact a different path of passion.
Not in Advertising but coffee business or to say people business.

In this one year journey I faced fear and courage. In the same time, I was supported by loads of love from family, friends and loved one. I'm a person who never give up, I'm a person who when I've set a goal, I'll move and never look back until recently there are times that i could sit by myself and that's probably the times I could reflect how i got to this moment and to where or what next.

Fear - fear of being used again, fear of changes, fear of failures, fear of giving so much, I'm not very sure of the main one but basically these were the fears i'm facing. And because of the these fears, sometimes there are some lights guided me along. Positive power - Courage and bravery.

I'm not sure changing from a seemingly arrogant and highly paid, Advertising Account Executive post to a seemingly humble and hourly paid, retail Barista post is a brave move or not. I think it's just a matter of decision making for one's future - I thought twice and triple for it and discuss again and again with Nic. I mind mapped reasons, options, advantages and disadvantages then it's decided.

I think this is courage, not a visible form, it's a value that it power up my desired wishes and make me stronger than I could never imagine.

When negative things happens, they happens with reasons. And with that, I found positive energy and live with them. That's y I hate and pity those who spread or live with negative energy, they just annoys me.


I never realise that working in CC+J is like playing in a fire pot. Everyday is suffocating. But innocently, I did good in shifting my mind to positive side. When I realised the real fact, it was already half year past since i left CC+J. The fact is I've missed the passion in advertising, it's not my life goal anymore. It's just the things I like of doing or enjoy but not living with it. I cried, but not as much as when i'm in CC+J, cause I knew I'm not struggling to be another person. I learnt who i am more. I learnt to be more calm and think deeper. Seeing bigger picture.

Nope, I never regret of working with and in CC+J. Never feeling hate of any ppl in the company instead, I feels so thankful that I met everyone even when i'm in 95%.
I see everything clearly and learnt a lot of values from each person and everything that happened. HOPE is the main thing I've been seeing. Seriously, if I never go to 95%, never CC+J and my life could be slower than now. I just want to learn non-stop.


Beginning in Starbucks I did feels like I'm playing with FIRE. I'm always exhausted and burnt. But I chose this: I must go on so i could live better. It's not the opposite life in CC+J. In some ways, it's same. But days were like years when almost no one around me talk about values, attitude, effectiveness, motivation, accountable...summore someone just hates me like hell. I hate him too, cause he's trying to spread negative energy to me. He did influenced me a lil. That's y I'm so sick of him. So constantly visiting Borders nearby my store is my chance of survival - a space that full of books, the environment of peace and harmony, the smell of coffee in borders too. Here in Starbucks I've been seeing something more realistic or can say very happening, I guess it's RESULTS - what's the result i wanna achieve.

From past experiences in working, managing, socializing, I learnt what kind of fire to play or not to play with. So in here, some fire that's not worth to touch, or just wasting my time then I'll just wanna leave them alone. By keep focusing on the goals i wanna achieve (and visiting Borders).

Well, I have a not very tough journey, but emo one *hehehe* - as old as me.
My EQ very low lah. I didn't know when i could achieve to be boss myself but believing + effective plan is another courage I'm practising now to success. Nothing is impossible. Everything can be worthwhile trying. It's just which one is most important.

And i always feels lucky to have met people who appreciates value and having positive energy and i'm glad that I'm lucky now and then. I also practise of giving out my positive energy rather soaking others, so to help people around me.

Cheers to me, now and then.