Giving and missing

Well, I use to believe that in the future, no matter what i do, i still can balance up my career and love life. em, now i'm not sure can i. but i think i can!

Recently, quite a mess when think about my love life. Me and Nic argued for some silly things but it's all started with a very important point. After I'm done with my idea generation works, I was struggling to think about my relationship problems. It's really hard to talk things out recently. He's asking me to understand him as he's struggling in between his business problem and me. After almost a week, I totally realize actually I can't. Unless I've gone through his process too. I'm blank now, not knowing what to do.
It's been almost a week this 'cold war' going on and it's unexpectedly mentally painful. So do 'heart-ly.

Well, I guess, it suppose to be I've been focused too much on my career and lack of love life. Funny. -.-" What so funny?

I'm tired, frustrated and ha...sleepy... A mouth saying 'Giving up, I don't care and It's ok' coming from my forehead is too ignoring. Giving my life on my career is the most happiest thing I've ever want to do. But I've weighted Career same priority as my LOVE life. Hm, I guess I should be stronger than the ignoring mouth that non-stop talking on my forehead. ha..

If I'm single today, would I be as good as now? I'm still wondering. But that's useless to think about. I should focus on what my heart is saying.

HA.. tired, frustrating and my eyes are so dry with the contact lens.
Tomorrow still need to work. I guess I gotta have a sweet dreams first.